Borachos Y Pendejitos

0:33 All right, I am trying to find video capture device, because apparently you have to have something that's capturing your image. All right. Headphones, other devices. Are you connecting other devices? Leave me on my own. Oh, do I have to put your phone in as ever? I think so. Oh, all right. Hold this. You know, go to system settings, then go to display and brightness. Okay.

1:20 System settings, display and brightness. That's good, girl. And then you go to, you go down the list, and then it'll say something. Night shift. No, the one after that. Auto lock. Then you go to never, and then you just leave it there. Okay. All right. Oof. You did, it. Oof. Okay, so then we go, oop, I chunga lunga.

2:01 Believe that, go back. And we say, yes, okay, and then we go shrink her down, because it's too big. I am flying. Hi. La-la-la-la-la. Hi.

2:44 No tan large, because, you know, estoy muy... Okay, that's good. All right, then we want to go like this. Home. Home. Yeah. I'm really... Okay. Okay. I don't want to panic you. No, I'm not panicked. I'm just like, I'm out there. Okay, but if... I mean, can you talk? Because you...

3:27 Why are you crying? I'm not crying. I'm just... It's so red and full of water. Oh, really? Oh, my God, yes. So then maybe I might be a little... No. No? Oh, God. No. Go for it. Okay. Is there a reason not to? I mean, if I can't anymore, I'll stop. How's that? I mean, yes. No, you have to keep going. You get that right i know i put so much pressure on myself you're you're no wonder you need to stay so heavy with so much fortitude, you're under a lot of pressure in that brain and that's on my own yeah it's all on your own i know i know it's kind of like you're smarter than that.

4:26 What the fuck are you doing? You know? It's like, chill the fuck out. That's true. Boy, I'm like, hija, no te haces. No te haces. My mom would always say that. No te haces. Like, no te haces, pendeja. Yeah. Yeah. You know, she was so aware of how.

5:12 Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello? Oh, that's better. Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello? Yeah, I can hear. Hello? Hello? Oh, that's better. Hello? We're going to have to get a table or something where we can face everybody because this is not being able to face them is weird. Oh, I love the background. What is it? Oh, that's... Oh, yeah, it's like a rainbow cloud. Because there's right there, that white thing, that's one of the light fixtures over there. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. And that white thing over... And that white thing, those are the lights pointing...

5:57 Oh, my God, we're so... Well, how cool is that? Well, yeah. The fact that it took us this long to realize, what the fuck are those white squares? And it's like, all right. Because I'm a blonde, yeah, yeah. I wish. Not to put blondes down or anything. Oh, yeah, right. I wish. Yeah. So, what's up? What should we talk about? Oh. If you wanted to reveal the scariest thing about yourself right now, what would it be? The scariest thing. And it's not fair that I ask that of you because I'm asking you to throw mud on yourself before I throw mud on myself.

6:37 And then I might go, ooh, that looked gross. I'm not going to do it. But, you know... I think if you're going to go for a higher level of existence, a higher level of existence, you want to advance your understanding of yourself. And by doing a simple thing, you can advance greatly. And that is asking yourself, the most difficult question. Look at yourself in the mirror as you progress as a human being. Look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself a very difficult question.

7:24 What could you share about yourself. That is not helping you, but also maybe hurting you? What could you share? Well I will tell you is not having teeth, I mean I used to be so proud of them you're so vain oh my god I'm sorry but you know, it was like that was part of my persona is having the best teeth in the world is that why you're drinking so much, could be listen you were drinking before that shit Oh, not before I was, but anyway.

8:15 So, aside from your cheese, do you think drinking might be a situation that, is like embarrassingly out of control? Yeah. So don't you? Oh, yeah, definitely. I mean, I've said it. I mean, I've said it because, but I have no willpower to stop. And, I've almost talked myself into, hey, I'm a drinker for life. So, you know, like that. And, I think that's fine. but the way my mind works it's cutting myself short because I like to know all aspects of life and I like to experience both sides of a story so I'd like to know what it's like, not to be addicted to alcohol I'd like to know what it's like not to be a drinker so I can say hey I went there I did it, you know so why not so the argument that on a lifetime drinker it doesn't hold water anymore it doesn't hold booze anymore um, i'm worried there's so many things i'm worried about i'm worried about the fact that we're both drinkers yeah and one of the principal one of the principal, instructions the principal beliefs in the 12-step program that i understood was.

9:53 If a person you're in a relationship with living with, suffers from the same thing that you're supposed to separate yourself from them until you guys can both come back as non-drinkers. Because they will become a crutch for you to continue to drink they'll be the ones saying yes when you're saying no, you'll be the one saying no when they're saying yes. But either way, you'll keep it going because you're like a team of drinkers. So that scares me because you're like my best friend in the whole world.

10:34 I know. And I don't want to go anywhere else. I don't either. But I don't want to be drinking anymore like this. I know. Me too. You know, I like the podcast reality and I want to do this podcast thing. And I feel like we're ripping people off if we're coming out under the influence of alcohol because it's kind of demifying or it's kind of knocking down the walls. It's kind of gutless. You know, it takes guts to come out and speak your truth. It's easy to speak your truth when you're drunk. Yeah. You know what I mean? That's true. So I kind of want to, I don't want to be gutless anymore. Okay. It's very embarrassing for me because I'm a very proud person. Me too.

11:15 And I can't imagine sharing this information with the people I know because I try to present myself as someone who's got their shit together. Yeah, absolutely. You know, in all areas of life I don't. And I do like the bottle. And it is a problem we both do it's a problem. And I don't want to separate yeah so. I guess we're making a promise to keep this podcast going, we're going to figure out a way for two best friends who are alcoholics to stop drinking and to present themselves, uh sober in the next episode, yeah so i mean i don't know what else needs to be said do you have anything else to say no i think baby steps baby steps yeah so the next episode has to be sober, And I hope your new teeth come in because the ones you have sucked. I know.

12:24 But, you know. But I'm getting there. So this is me. But also my new teeth. Madi. We call her Madi. Listen, many people say Madi. That's not the way it goes. With her, it's Madi. Like almost like an M-A-D-I. Madi. That's how you say her name, Madi. that's why it's Maddie and John LOL with Maddie and John laugh out loud Maddie and John dot com but also, come and visit us and if you have difficulty you know hey I don't know.

13:09 Try and change try and change try your best to change Always to become better within yourself. Oh, all right. Here we go. Twin powers. Sobriety. Sobriety. We'll see you next time. Sober clean and sober. Bye.